The Ground My Bed, the Leaves My Blanket ~ A Short Story by Allen Kopp
The vast cemetery was almost as old as the city itself. It contained untold acres of hills, trees, ponds, statues, winding roads, mausoleums, columbariums (for cremated human remains), crypts, walk-in burial chambers gouged out of the sides of the hills, along with every size, style (a century and a half of changing styles), shape and description of grave marker known to man. It was a sprawling city of the dead but also home (if only a temporary one) to dozens of indigents from the city who lived on the street and had no other place to rest their weary (living) bones except among the unsuspecting dead.
Anybody who ever took up residence in the cemetery, if only for one night, knew it afforded many excellent and discreet hiding places where one might sleep, copulate, perform bodily functions, eat, bathe, think, drink, cry—or do any number of other things—away from the prying eyes of man.
Like every indigent living on the streets of the city (and subsequently in the cemetery), Vicki-Vicki Novak had a story. After graduating from high school, she believed she had everything she needed to find herself a good job, so she left her rancorous mother and her unhappy home and spent six nausea-inducing hours on the bus and moved to the city. Life for her had always been hard, but it wasn’t until she came to the city that she discovered how truly ugly it is.
She would have taken any job she could find but the truth was there were no jobs of any kind to be had. She was turned away repeatedly because she had no experience of any kind. It didn’t matter that she was good at figures, was a stellar reader, and made better-than-average grades in school. She couldn’t get a job as a cafeteria worker because there were already seventy-five girls on the list ahead of her. She applied for a job in a laundry but was told she was too young and too slightly built to carry heavy loads. The sad truth was she didn’t make a good impression on those who might have hired her; she was too diffident and naïve; she knew too little of the world.
She spent her first two weeks in the city in an old hotel but, when she saw how fast her money was being used up, she took what little she had left and moved to a cheap boarding house where she slept in a tiny, box-like room and ate two small meals a day.
Finally even the boarding house was too expensive for her and she ended up living on the streets, where she met a coterie of other down-and-outers just like her. They gave her advice about how to survive and where she might get a bite to eat or a place to flop for the night. More than once she engaged in sexual congress with nefarious men in exchange for a small amount of cash, a package of cigarettes, an orange, or a couple of pills that were guaranteed to make her feel wonderful and forget all her troubles. She abhorred these couplings at first but after a time didn’t mind them so much because she disconnected herself from the proceedings and felt nothing.
Vicki-Vicki was fortunate in one respect because when she first began living on the streets of the city, it was May and the cruel and dreadful winter was past and wouldn’t be coming around again for a while. During a police crackdown on the street people, she sought refuge in the cemetery on the advice of a friend, one Chester Burnside, a man who might at one time have been a woman (one of those aberrations of nature all too abundant in the large city). The number-one piece of cemetery advice that veterans like Chester Burnside had to offer to newcomers like Vicki-Vicki was this: Don’t get caught because if you do you might get your brains knocked out or you might end up in jail. All the veterans had horror stories about people getting their brain matter literally knocked out of their heads onto the ground by leering, sadistic cemetery guards.
On a Friday afternoon in October, Vicki-Vicki was washing up at one of the cemetery’s fountains. She trailed her hands in the water and brought them to her face. The water was fresh and clean. She wished she might take off all her clothes and get down in the water naked and give herself a good scrubbing, but if she dared to do such a thing, somebody was sure to come along and see her, so she just contented herself with rinsing her arms and face.
Towering above the fountain was a seven-foot tall lady angel. Her wings were only marginally chipped and bird-splattered; she looked down with a benevolent and loving expression.
“What are you doing here?” the angel asked, bending her head in Vicki-Vicki’s direction.
“I was washing myself,” Vicki-Vicki said.
“You might drown yourself if you have any sense.”
“Why would I do that?”
“It’s October now. Winter’s coming.”
“Do you still plan on still being here when winter comes?”
“I don’t plan anything. I never did.”
“You’d better go back home now, while the days are still warm.”
“I don’t have a home.”
“Everybody has a home.”
“My mother said she’d kill me if she ever saw me again.”
“When did you last eat?”
“I don’t know. Yesterday, sometime, I think.”
“Life is hard, isn’t it?”
“I find it so.”
“You can do better.”
“Tell me how.”
Somebody was coming. They both heard the footsteps moving through the leaves at the same time. The angel went back to being mute and immobile, while Vicki-Vicki ran and hid behind the nearest large tree.
When she peered cautiously around the tree, she was relieved to see it was the old sot Eulah Knickerbocker and not a cemetery guard.
“Hey! You!” she said, stepping out into the open.
Eulah Knickerbocker jumped and only kept from screaming by placing her filthy hand over her mouth. “You shouldn’t scare people like that!” she said. “My nerves is shot all to hell!”
“Why? What’s the matter?”
“I’m going around telling everybody I see. It’s lucky I found you. There’s going to be a purge tonight.”
“What’s a purge?”
“They’ve took on extra guards. They’re going to go through the cemetery and round up everybody who doesn’t belong. Some of us will end up dead.”
“Just hide,” Vicki-Vicki said. “That’s what I do.”
“No, dear! You won’t be able to hide from them this time. If you’re here, they’ll find you. You’d better get out before dark.”
“Where would I go?”
“How on earth should I know? Go back to the city.”
“I came here to get away from the city!”
“I know! It’s terrible, ain’t it? But if they find you here tonight, it will go very bad for you. They might throw you in jail, and if they do you might never get out again.”
“They don’t scare me,” Vicki-Vicki said.
“Take it from somebody who’s been there, dearie. I’ve been living on the streets for seventeen years. I know how these things go.”
“You haven’t seen that fella they call Diego, have you?” Vicki-Vicki asked.
“If I did, I’d try to forget it.”
“He owes me money.”
“You’ll be lucky to get a nickel out of him, even if you do find him.”
“No, he’s been working, clearing brush. If I can catch him before he spends all his pay, I can get my money and have enough for a decent room for the night.”
“Say, you wouldn’t mind me coming along, would you, darling? Two can stay in a room for the same price as one.”
“Not this time, Eulah. I just need to be alone tonight.”
“Well, all right. I figure it don’t hurt to ask.”
“No, it don’t. Have you got anything to eat?”
“No, I haven’t, but if I did I’d share it with you.”
“I know you would, Eulah.”
“Have you seen my twin sister, Beulah?”
“No, I haven’t.”
“She’s the great beauty of the family. Have I ever told you about her?”
“I believe so.”
“She’s coming to get me and take me home with her to live. I don’t know if it’ll be tonight but any day now.”
“I hope it all works out for you, Eulah.”
“It’s bound to, this time.”
She didn’t know what time it was, but the sun was going down and the air was cooler. It would be about the time, she thought, that normal people who live in houses would be sitting down to dinner. She needed to think about where she would spend the night in case she didn’t find Diego and get her money. The idea was to find a snug little place out of the wind that hadn’t already been claimed by somebody else.
She went to the oldest part of the cemetery, the part she liked best and the part where she was mostly likely to see a ghost if there were any about. The trees were sheltering; the gravestones large and close together, making her feel safe. She began piling up dry leaves to make herself a bed in a secure little spot between stones when she heard someone coming. She started to hide but the person, whoever it was, was already upon her.
“Hey, there, little chicken!” a man’s voice said.
Right away she recognized the voice as that of Julius Orange. He was tall and rather handsome but his face and hands were crusted with dirt all the time as if he never washed them and one of his eyes was permanently half-closed.
“I thought you were one of the guards,” she said breathlessly.
“No, but I might have been. Have you heard the news about the raid tonight?”
“Eulah Knickerbocker told me.”
“You’d better get out while you can.”
“No, I’ve decided to stay,” Vicki-Vicki said. “I’m cold and I’m sick and I don’t feel like walking all the way back to the city tonight.”
“It’s your funeral.”
“I don’t think the guards will come all the way over here. They’re afraid of ghosts.”
“You’re cold, aren’t you?”
“I feel like I have ice water in my veins.”
“I can warm you up.”
“You got a bottle?”
“No, I don’t mean that,” he said. “I was wondering if you’re open for business. I’ve got four dollars.”
“You would spend your four dollars on me?”
“And a lot more.”
“Save your money. Tonight I’m not worth four cents.”
“Are you sure?”
“Say, you haven’t seen Diego around anywhere, have you?” she asked.
“Haven’t seen him for a few days.”
“He owes me money.”
“You can have my four dollars and catch yourself a bus back to town.”
“Thanks, but I’m just going to bed down here for tonight and see how things go.”
“It’s your funeral,” he said, and then he was gone.
It was fully dark now. She kicked at the leaves and shivered in the rising wind. She looked up at the sky anxiously, hoping to forestall any rain, but the sky wasn’t telling any tales. She burrowed into the leaves like an animal and gathered the leaves around her like a warm comforter.
The leaves smelled good, an uncorrupted smell. She was completely hidden from view, she believed, but she could still breathe and could see a speck of the sky up through the trees. This is not so bad, she thought. If only life could be like this always.
She felt the cold rising up from the ground. She shivered and her teeth chattered but soon she felt warmer and went to sleep. She dreamed she was in a big bed in a warm room in a snug house and those who cared for her were within the call of her voice and there was nothing to be afraid of.
She jerked awake to the sound of men’s voices. They were far away but coming closer. There might have been as many as ten of them and they might have been at a drunken party for all the fun they seemed to be having.
She lay still and breathed deeply. There were so many leaves on the ground and she was sure they wouldn’t bother looking through all of them. They would just make a quick sweep and, finding no one, move on. She would laugh later at how close they had been but still missed her.
She was right. They did move on, but one of the men had detached himself from the others and was searching through the leaves between the gravestones. She heard his slow, decisive footsteps and then felt a rush of cold air on her face as he scraped the leaves away that were covering her.
“Come out of there!” a deep voice said.
She gave a little yelp and covered her face with her hands but knew there was no use resisting.
“Leave me alone!” she whimpered. “I didn’t do anything!”
“You’re not supposed to be here!”
“I’m leaving. Please don’t hit me with your stick!”
“Nobody’s going to hit you. Get up and talk to me.”
She stood up. The man, towering over her, shone his flashlight in her face.
“How did you know I was here?” she asked.
“Magic,” he said.
“Please don’t take me to jail.”
“It’s where you belong. Don’t you know you’re trespassing?”
“I’m going, I swear!”
“It’s dangerous for you to be here.”
“I know! I’ll leave right now.”
“People freeze to death out here all the time. Last winter we picked up thirty frozen dead bodies.”
“I was looking for someone, but he’s not here now so I’ll just go.”
“If I turn you over to the others, you’ll go to jail.”
“Please don’t do that!”
“I’ll let you go this time, but only one condition.”
“Promise me you’ll get out and don’t come back. If I see you again, I’ll remember you and I’ll turn you in. You don’t want to end up in jail, do you?”
“Go home. Don’t you have a home?”
“Go to a shelter in town, then. There are people there who will help you.”
“I will. I promise.”
He handed her a small paper sack, which she took unquestioningly. Switching off his flashlight, he took off his coat and dropped it on the ground beside her. He gave her one last look and then he was gone.
“Wait a minute!” she said. “I was…”
She could still here his voice after he was gone. If I see you here again, I’ll remember you and you’ll go to jail.
“Take me with you!” she called out, but he was already gone and couldn’t have heard.
She remembered the paper bag she held in her hand and opened it. Inside were a ham sandwich wrapped in paper and a little carton of milk.
She ate the sandwich and drank the milk as if tasting those things for the first time and when she was finished she vomited, bending over at the waist and leaning against a tree.
When she was finished, she wiped her mouth with her hands and then as she was turning away from the tree she remembered the coat lying on the ground and picked it up and put it on. It was much too big for her, going almost to her knees, and it still held the warmth of the man’s body.
She hugged her arms to her body and, like a princess in a fairy story, was transformed. A beam of bright light opened above her head; the brightness entered her body and settled around her heart. Experiencing a kind of religious ecstasy, she trembled all over and fell to the ground in awe and humility. She knew now what it was like to look upon the face of God.
Copyright © 2019 by Allen Kopp